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TM(I) about her life

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 Verbal abuse topping the list followed by physical and emotional abuse has always been the cherry on the top in the relationship she has shared with a fellow gentleman in the past. Well, at least she thought the person was gentle until months passed by and she was shocked to see versions of him that she couldn't believe existed or probably it was camouflaged. Whatever or however it is, she learned one thing, he got the liberty to treat her like she means nothing because she handed that privilege to him. The superiority he holds by abusing is a backlash that traumatizes an entire soul jerking it down to the feet of the unexpected and uncopyable fate. If it was this shattering to read the paragraph think about the treacherous life she has been leading in order to be happy with something or someone who doesn't bother enough to own up to his flaws and faults. She caressed her wounds with the love she got when she begged for it.  She is someone who relates to this. She is someone ...
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Hello Feelings !

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I almost started to believe that fire on fire would normally kill me, but with this much desire, I am a winner. They say that I am out of control and some say I am a sinner but I don't let them ruin my beautiful rhythms. I ask myself how long I have been in this storm that I am so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form. Life is slowing down, time's uncertain, and eyes go blank. I am shaken by every question that makes me wait. It's hard to believe so many years have passed, so many lessons I have learned, and how some things never last.  I thought I saw the devil as the visitor in my room this morning looking in the mirror, with a warning to help me see myself clearer. Whereas all the pretty visitors have waved their arms and cast the shadow of a snake pit. My past has tasted bitter for years now. So I wield an iron fist as grace is just weakness. Even with my fists held high, it would never have worked outright because I was never meant for do or die.  Mood rings an...
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Classic "me" mistake

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Someone speaks: Some days I don't want to try, to smile for its long now. I think too much and I want to know where to go when nothing's wrong. I am not alright and nothing ever makes sense. I stay up till sunrise and hope everything is okay. I am getting sick of sleeping, while all I am doing is popping pills. Yesterday I thought I saw my shadow running around and it's so crazy that things never change in my old mind. I want to tell everything, the words I never got to say the first time around. And I remember everything from where I was a child playing in a fairground, I wish I was there now...I have been here before, but I always hit the floor. I have spent a lifetime running but nothing makes me want to stay. A million shards of glass haunt me from my past as the stars begin to gather and the light begins to fade when all the hope begins to shatter. I thought I saw the devil this morning looking in the mirror, with a warning to help me see myself clearer. My past has ta...
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Good-bye

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She looked at life through the rose-tinted glass...and shared goodwill with everyone.No one disliked her... " apparently they didn't". She felt great while she was surrounded by people but deep down she felt lonely and wanted someone to truly appreciate her existence. She knew it would hurt her, but she blamed herself first. While the people around have woken her up, yet kept choking her. She didn't care if the explosion in her mind would ruin her. She felt she is slipping through the cracks of other's cold embrace. She wanted to hide from the light. Maybe she felt hopeless, but she is only a human, yet she hoped everyone knew she would give it all for a moment with herself. She knew the pain was determined and demanding to ache, but it's okay. She lost a part of her existence in the war against herself. She kept treating everyone well but now she is caught in the middle, she is caught at the edge of the knife and it hurts her a little. They might think she is...
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Love Is Sweet

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"What is going on in the beautiful mind of her?" he thought and smiled. He figured out his helplessness without her smart mouth. This drew him in, spun his head, and pinned him down. He felt his head underwater, yet kept breathing because he knew he was out of his mind. Tears rolled down his cheeks dropped down on her hands...He missed her hands which once rubbed his sorrow away. He loves all of her like she loved all of him. He loves all her curves and edges, all of her perfect imperfections. He gave her all of him. He cried out loud "how many times do I have to tell you, even when you are crying you are beautiful too". He exclaimed, "you were my downfall, you're my muse". He craved for his worst distraction and his rhythmic blue. Her voice kept ringing in his mind. He would like to make himself believe that planet earth turns slowly, yet it is hard for him to stay awake when she is asleep. He cursed the cruel world for taking her away from him, yet h...
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It's just life...

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Some things are meant to happen while others we curate to make happen...she knew this well, yet refrained her mind from thinking about it. Under the bright but faded lights, the thought of loneliness crept through her. She realized she had been chasing her demons down an empty road, watching her castle turn into dust, escaping her shadows just to end up nowhere. She carried a broken smile, tired eyes, and a longing heart... She knew she was on a magical mystery ride...meeting the monsters raging wild inside her. For moments she stood alone watching all her doubts, suddenly go away somehow. She wanted to shout, cry and say "Don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years". The blood moon is rising, the fire burning in her eyes...she cribbed eternally. She knew if she ever finds herself stuck in the middle of the sea, he'll sail the world to find her. Cause that's what friends are supposed to do.  To the world they were lovers to them they were the best of fr...
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