Hello Feelings !

I almost started to believe that fire on fire would normally kill me, but with this much desire, I am a winner. They say that I am out of control and some say I am a sinner but I don't let them ruin my beautiful rhythms. I ask myself how long I have been in this storm that I am so overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form. Life is slowing down, time's uncertain, and eyes go blank. I am shaken by every question that makes me wait. It's hard to believe so many years have passed, so many lessons I have learned, and how some things never last. 

I thought I saw the devil as the visitor in my room this morning looking in the mirror, with a warning to help me see myself clearer. Whereas all the pretty visitors have waved their arms and cast the shadow of a snake pit. My past has tasted bitter for years now. So I wield an iron fist as grace is just weakness. Even with my fists held high, it would never have worked outright because I was never meant for do or die. 


Mood rings and candles in the wind, but it's so little light to find my way because I don't know what to cling to when the rain sets in. Instead of cursing in darkness, I lit a candle to trace what I have been up to. I knew I was on my own magical mystery ride...meeting the monsters raging wild inside me. For moments I stood alone watching all my doubts, suddenly go away somehow. I realized I have been chasing my demons down an empty road, watching my castle turn into dust, escaping my shadows just to end up nowhere. I carried a broken smile, tired eyes, and a longing heart...Holding on to dreams waiting for tomorrow to come and calm the storm inside my heart.