Good-bye

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She looked at life through the rose-tinted glass...and shared goodwill with everyone.No one disliked her... " apparently they didn't". She felt great while she was surrounded by people but deep down she felt lonely and wanted someone to truly appreciate her existence.

She knew it would hurt her, but she blamed herself first. While the people around have woken her up, yet kept choking her. She didn't care if the explosion in her mind would ruin her. She felt she is slipping through the cracks of other's cold embrace. She wanted to hide from the light. Maybe she felt hopeless, but she is only a human, yet she hoped everyone knew she would give it all for a moment with herself.




She knew the pain was determined and demanding to ache, but it's okay. She lost a part of her existence in the war against herself. She kept treating everyone well but now she is caught in the middle, she is caught at the edge of the knife and it hurts her a little. They might think she is a fool, might think she is new to this, but she has seen all these before.

Every time they hurt her, the less she cries. Every time they left her, the quicker those tears dry, and every time anyone walked away, she loved herself a little less. Finally, she promised herself that she will keep herself safe and sound one day. But right now she is pretty crazy and doesn't know how to stop or slow down. She may be far and gone forever.

And she exclaimed, "I don't want to but I can't put anyone above myself...and I am good at goodbyes..."

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  1. R. DuttaOctober 31, 2020 at 1:51 AM

    Every time they heart her she less cries...
    Its good sense of feelings. Such statements gives impact in the writtings. But just see that your writtings do not get you bind only between he and she. World is surrounded by many more aspects. Keep it up.

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